An especially worried day

I'll just put it out there, sometimes it is downright hard keeping up with everything and once in awhile I wonder why I decided to make this commitment. I could have taken up tropical fish ya know!

There is so much to learn it can be mind boggling and whereas some of this life with them that I have chosen feels instinctual, knowing what to do with the instinct is often the challenge. I am forever making sure things are just right and when I get it right I suspect a lot of it is, just has to be, dumb luck because I sure didn't have any working knowledge when I moved in. Or maybe it's mom commonsense kicking in and saving me from a disaster? Maybe it should be called momsense?

Everyday I am delivered things to remind me that I haven't thought of everything, it's humbling sometimes. Today Patch stepped on a rock in the driveway when we were going back to the barn, this is because the gravel needs to be replaced. This is a simple problem, a simple fix and the work around (as to not hurt their feet, it also made Perris uncomfortable) is to not walk down it, go around, no big deal. On an especially worried day I can turn that simple gravel thing into quite a big deal. "There is a lot, you know that, you need the advice of others cause this is brand spankin' new for you, there is only shame in either of those things if you don't seek out advice" That is the pep talk I give myself on especially worried days.

I will be asking Kate's dad all about gravel in the next day or so; I don't know the first thing about putting fresh gravel on the drive and what exactly needs to be done to control the mud. I have an idea, still I don't really know, so I will ask.

I have been riding, everyday as planned. I even tried to post without stirrups. I think I manage to not fall apart for about 10 seconds at a time! We're gonna keep at it, slowly. Actually I want to try it on the lunge line, I should talk to Sarah. Once I ask, I will have to do it! That's a lot of work! I will ask her though cause I do want to get to where I enjoy it and not dread it, the only way I know how to get there is to practice.

I rode Patch today; there is something bothering him, I am pretty sure of that. I'm not sure what it is though, again I am going to ask Sarah about it. I know he is not comfortable sometimes, I can feel that. I am not sure however what it is; let's be honest, I have no idea. Today I got off him once and then back on him, I did it a second time and when attempting to get back on he was not having it. I got off the first time to adjust the reins which appeared crooked to me, no big deal. The second time I got off was for equally unimportant reasons however when I attempted to get back on he was downright upset at the idea. When we were riding we were fine. It seems he wants to trot but we're just walking, for the most part he stayed at a walk. However you can feel that he wants to go. I am not sure why he wants to go go go. It could be circumstantial or it could be that he is physically uncomfortable. I don't know which it is. He's the nicest guy in the world and if something is making riding uncomfortable I'd like to know what that is so we can help him, if it's circumstantial we'll work through that too. On an especially worried day I can turn his not wanting to cooperate into all kinds of things that point to me not knowing this or that so I'll ask...

I just got back from the barn and all is well. It really has been an especially worried day, I'll let it go at that. ;-)

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